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New Fiction: My Mental Health Lists to Save Sanity by Richard DeFino
 Art by Eva DeMeo
Mental Health List – I
Where am I in life?
Unsatisfied ✔
Cooking in shithole restaurants for seven years ✔
Eleven years working in the unforgiving restaurant business all together ✔
Sad ✔
Broke ✔
Angry ✔
So what do I do now?
Get a doctor ✔
Come up with a solution ✔
Look back into the past in order to determine problem ✔
Work on problem ✔
Fix problem?
Go on and enjoy my life…To be later determined
Mental Health list – II
 Fixing the problem
Lose 20 pounds, start taking Vitamin D pills multiple times a day. (Good doctor)
Exercise rigorously. Start taking Zoloft (Good Doctor)
Take Adderall, Lexapro and Clonazepam all together, daily. (Bad doctor)
Eat a steady diet of fruits and vegetables and meditate daily. (Good doctor)
Mental Health List – III
 Denial
Low fuel light on in my car ✔
$40-$50 in my bank checking account ✔
Drove to work completely miserable and depressed sitting in my work parking lot washing down Clonazepam with cheap “Johnnie Bootlegger” malt liquor at 8:25 in the morning, then doing the same during my lunch break ✔
Talked myself out of driving my car head first into a tree at 120 mph so I could either get out of work or even better, die, in order to get out of going to my hated job and paying unwanted bills ✔
Mental Health List – IV
What I’ve done to fix the problem
Cocaine, Metaxalone, Soma, Hydrocodone, Tramadol, Adderall, Clonazepam and alcohol ✔
Problem still not fixed ✔
Wallowing around daily in my sorrows drowning in my own tears of self-pity ✔
Basically nothing at all accomplished ✔
Mental Health List – V
Acceptance
Fuck it, I’m not normal ✔
Get sober ✔ So far so good, granted the two relapses. Current sobriety date, 4/11/14 ✔
Stop being a bitch and accept my past and move on to my future ✔
Drink many Chai Lattes and read and write crazy poetry ✔
Happy family and healthy marriage ✔
Go on and enjoy my life ✔✔✔
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theneweryork:

New Fiction: My Mental Health Lists to Save Sanity by Richard DeFino

glacierpeople2 Art by Eva DeMeo

Mental Health List – I

Where am I in life?
  • Unsatisfied ✔
  • Cooking in shithole restaurants for seven years ✔
  • Eleven years working in the unforgiving restaurant business all together ✔
  • Sad ✔
  • Broke ✔
  • Angry ✔
So what do I do now?
  • Get a doctor ✔
  • Come up with a solution ✔
  • Look back into the past in order to determine problem ✔
  • Work on problem ✔
  • Fix problem?
  • Go on and enjoy my life…To be later determined

Mental Health list – II

Fixing the problem
  1. Lose 20 pounds, start taking Vitamin D pills multiple times a day. (Good doctor)
  2. Exercise rigorously. Start taking Zoloft (Good Doctor)
  3. Take Adderall, Lexapro and Clonazepam all together, daily. (Bad doctor)
  4. Eat a steady diet of fruits and vegetables and meditate daily. (Good doctor)

Mental Health List – III

Denial
  1. Low fuel light on in my car ✔
  2. $40-$50 in my bank checking account ✔
  3. Drove to work completely miserable and depressed sitting in my work parking lot washing down Clonazepam with cheap “Johnnie Bootlegger” malt liquor at 8:25 in the morning, then doing the same during my lunch break ✔
  4. Talked myself out of driving my car head first into a tree at 120 mph so I could either get out of work or even better, die, in order to get out of going to my hated job and paying unwanted bills ✔

Mental Health List – IV

What I’ve done to fix the problem
  1. Cocaine, Metaxalone, Soma, Hydrocodone, Tramadol, Adderall, Clonazepam and alcohol ✔
  2. Problem still not fixed ✔
  3. Wallowing around daily in my sorrows drowning in my own tears of self-pity ✔
  4. Basically nothing at all accomplished ✔

Mental Health List – V

Acceptance
  1. Fuck it, I’m not normal ✔
  2. Get sober ✔ So far so good, granted the two relapses. Current sobriety date, 4/11/14 ✔
  3. Stop being a bitch and accept my past and move on to my future ✔
  4. Drink many Chai Lattes and read and write crazy poetry ✔
  5. Happy family and healthy marriage ✔
  6. Go on and enjoy my life ✔✔✔
Read it:
http://theneweryork.com/my-mental-health-lists-to-save-sanity-richard-defino/